For the rhythm of our blood

My good friend from U.S. sent me a big box of wonderful books. I long couldn't reach them, but finally  Nick Bantock's book "Venetian's wife" literally mesmerized me. It is incredibly beautiful graphic novel about "а Renaissance Explorer, a Computer, and a Metamorphosis". The story is very sensual and full of references to Hindu mythology. So it's no surprise that this book attracted me! The entire novel consists of letters between a museum researcher, Sara Wolfe, and N. Conti, a centuries-old ghost trapped within the confines of modern technology. Conti hires Sara to track down the pieces of a peculiar art collection, and Sara discovers more of herself — and her destiny — in the process. Bаntock is a great graphic artist, and small pictures accompanying the text are really peculiar and charming. The story about art historian is so close to me that the book has left a lot of pleasant impressions. My house is full of statues brought from various trips to Asia and marvelous incenses, and books such as "Venetian's wife" carry me back to the narrow streets of India and make me purr like a cat ^^.

I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair

Life lesson #1: jealousy. 

Frankly, I'm a terrible perfectionist and used to be the best in everything. I know it's very selfish, but I would like to take the most important place in the thoughts of my beloved. But I must say that before we met, he lived with another girl he was madly in love. She left him, but for many years she remained for him a sort of deity. I know that I can never take her place in his heart. It's very painful. Especially when so much in his life and in the house is still something about her. It blackens my thoughts and I try my best to get rid of these negative emotions. In this way  Indian philosophy that preaches rejection of any emotion at all helps me very much. Have you faced similar situations? How do you fight this? 

The velvet blade of apathy

Phew ... Yesterday my thesis was finally approved at a meeting of professors at my university. Now I feel kind of devastation and sadness. The fact is that I merged with my research work and study, and I'm scared to imagine that all this will be over soon. Although, may be it's spring acting so on the unbalanced people :)  Just in a week the darkness left my city, and here is so much bright sunlight now... How can you not have arisen psychosis! 

But the best cure for a girl is shopping :) I have long needed spring shoes and I saw this lovely couple in time. They are made in retro style of fake leather and suede. And of course the photos can't convey how cute they look on the legs ^^. What is important for me, they remind of Audrey Horne's shoes  from Twin Peaks, my favorite heroine. 

If we are talking about shopping, I can't hide my admiration for the new facility for hair from Diego Dalla Palma. This is a wonderful shampoo and conditioner. I bought them in a spa hotel during a trip to Mikkeli. At the moment this cosmetic line has become my number 1. It strengthens the hair and makes it silky, just magic! 

Baby goth :D

Do you remember yourself in a period when you just became interested in the subculture? For me the turning point was 2005-2006, when I began to communicate with gothic hangouts of Petersburg and feel like a Goth. On the other hand, of course I was still a child. What can I say, 15-16 years! :) Now, after almost ten years, so weird to look at old photos ...First black clothes, first hair coloring, first party, first gothic boys :) It seems that it was in another life with another person. But these pictures - silent witnesses of the past. 

(I am second from the left. What a grim, oh!)

( I love that pic very much...Don't ask me why, I can't explain...)

Finland red, Egypt white

Belatedly, I congratulate all the beauties with International Women's Day! Here in Russia, we had three free days :) Fortunately we didn't sit at home and went to my favorite fairy Finland in Mikkeli. It is a small town near the gorgeous lake Saimaa. Mikkeli is all related to the life and activities of Gustaf Mannerheim. If you are interested in this great man, you definitely need to get here. In addition, the town has a stunning cathedral, built in the early 20th century in Neo-Gothic style. It's impressive and gloomy building. Although it may seemed to me, because the weather was harsh and dark. But there is a tempting reason to visit Mikkeli - winery "Ollinmaki"! They make wine and cider from berries growing nearby: currant, blackberry, rowan, apples. But for me the number 1 is  cranberry wine! Delicious! Of course I brought  a couple of clinking bottles ;) On the night we stayed in a wonderful spa hotel  "Anttolahnovi". It is located right on the shore of lake Saimaa and built from eco-friendly materials, without harm to the environment, what I appreciate very high. The hotel is very cozy and the huge plus is windows facing the forest and lake ^^. Everything is there for relaxation of body and soul. 

(Our window and Saimaa)

I love the darkness in you

Last week I met  my  beloved sister Tarja. We wandered through the twilight city and the road itself led us to the old Lutheran cemetery. The first time this year we've been there. I like walking along the cobbled lanes of dilapidated graves of French and German citizens. It was pretty cool, but we had a jar with rum and despite the darkness, we spent a lot of time there.  As a child, I always thought that the grave can fill you with some kind of energy. So I love to touch the mossy tombstones and feel like supernatural force penetrates me. This time we found  forgotten candles and lit them all around. We talked about life, love, broken hearts, and only the moon looked down on us.

The Picture of Dorian Graсе

Oh no, that's not a typo :) I named this post so because my close friend from America hung my picture on his wall, and it's immediately sparked association with the story of Wilde! For the first time I see my photos in this form and it is very pleasant to me. 

Oh how I would like that picture to grow old  instead of me ... I'm afraid of aging. What do you think of this? How do you feel about that process? I always wanted to be a vampire, for the reason that old age and death won't affect me. Just imagine - you're forever young, healthy, and you have hundreds of years ahead to explore all that you are interested! What could be better than this?!