(Me, Irina Voorhees, Julia Pchela, Kristina Boyko)
As soon as on the new sheet of calendar appears word 'October', in my head softly and thoughtfully, starts to sound old U2 song. Such a simple and touching, it characterized this month the best. The keys in this song are similar to the the last glimpses of the warm sun, which soon will be hidden from us for the long winter months. October is intoxicating, makes us poetic and melancholic. The body falls into a trance and all that I want to do - just to admire the golden leaves, floating on the cooling waters of my soul.
Hi dears! Forgive me for my silence, but my head is spinning from the different cases. Soon there will be our new photosets, and we are actively preparing for Halloween! All this is very difficult. You know what is female character :) Our team consists of 5 girls and all with different interests and beliefs. So, many ideas are born in the debate. I hope we can overcome everything, because we are waiting for so many interesting things to come ;)
A few weeks ago I told you that I have visited the Harley Davidson Festival in St. Petersburg. This is where started my love for motorcycles. But not only that! A few pin-up cats, who met there, have teamed up to create a new retro project. Get acquainted - "Rebel Dolls"!
(From left to right: Irina Voorhees, Fronny Ro, Grace Hollow Doll, Julia Pchela, Kristina Boyko)
"Rebel dolls - is bright and bold project, that was created to maintain the rebellious spirit and Pin Up culture in the Russian capital of rock 'n' roll. Pin Up for us isn't only appearance and a cultural phenomenon, but also a way of life. We are experimenting with our own style - from the refined elegance of 20-30'sboudoirs till the audacity of psychobilly. And we are also involved in the shows, parties and performances. Welcome to the world of retro aesthetics and rock-drive!"
So, where do we start?Our acquaintance on motofestival literally became the forerunner of the first photoset. Guys, Harley Davidson shop owners - Fort MFG, invited us to shoot for the advertisement. Just imagine! Dozens of top-class motorcycles for which I even scared to breathe! 5 hours of work and this is our result! They say better luck next time, but I think we did a fine job today :)
Autumn. Soft and fresh. The air is filled with new flavors. Have you noticed that every season has its own aroma? In autumn it's spicy and sweet. May be the case in the allegory of a pumpkin? :) September - my favorite month. It's bright, sunny, warm and foggy at the same time. Japanese art helped me to come to a new understanding of autumn. Previously, I perceived it exclusively on the Gothic manner as something depressing and gloomy, associated with death. But the Japanese Zen art, especially poetry, made me realize that the End - it is always the Beginning of something new, and wilting no less beautiful than the bloom. So September is time for warm sweaters, books and memories! Speaking of memories, I recently found an old gift from my American friend. This is a deck of cards, which appeared in Twin Peaks. Since I am really mad about this film, he made cards of Windom Earle especially for my birthday. Just besides the characters of David Lynch, he added cards with me and my friends. The result was something fascinating and frightening! Oh, how I love when real life is interwoven with dreams!
August 7-10 in St. Petersburg held annual festival of Harley Davidson - "Harley days". Thousands of bikers from around the world come to participate in the parade in the city center. It was a powerful experience! And immediately felt that St. Petersburg is the European city level. A few days went concerts of rockabilly and rock and roll music, and the festival was adorned with participation of pin up girls. I was among the lucky ones too;) I'm a little embarrassed to say it, but it looks like we were the most vivid girls at the festival. Everyone wanted to take pictures with us. All this inspired us to develop pin-up movement in our city. Let's see what happens :)
What could be worse than a quarrel with a close friend? This compares to parting with a loved one. Unfortunately now I'm just in such a situation. You can really love the person, but sometimes you get so much negativity that it is no longer possible to stay near and you leave. Me and my friend Irina were together for many years. We have so many common memories, projects, plans... But lately, only frustration, rage and anger comes from her. I know that she is very emotional person and often simply non-controlling herself. But I am too tired and can't be the same garbage pit, which merges all the bad things. We are both very sick. I don't want to quarrel and sort things out. I'm on the verge of ceasing to communicate with her at all. I hope it will pass. Now I just need silence, peace and solitude. My boyfriend says that I should not take the quarrel with a friend so close to the heart. But it's impossible, because she is the part of my life. Without her, I would lose a piece of myself. Now my mind is polluted by negative emotions, I need to be cleansed, need some kind of meditation.
Recent days have been associated with a lot of work, reading, various searches. My work now has two directions. The first is University. Second - the newly opened by me and my beautiful friend Irina Internet shop with pin up, retro and gothic clothing. We named it "Cherry shop" and this is our cute logo:
Communication with customers, order processing, design of Internet space - all it takes a lot of time. But it's very interesting and I do not notice how my day flies by! Unfortunately :) Beautiful people and beautiful things - this combination inspires me to great deeds!
However, in the evening, when I find myself at home with a loved one and together we prepare a vegetarian supper - I rest for real. My evening is now once again filled with masterpiece of David Lynch. Of course I'm talking about Twin Peaks. This is my favorite movie and I can watch it countless times. Color, staged frames, nature, characters and their strangeness - all combine to create an unreal world of dreams. Oh, how I wish one day to visit this town, to admire its waterfall and to taste famous Norma's pie with a cup of black coffee! But among other things, one of the main ornaments of this film is the music of Angelo Badalamenti. He managed to create an incredibly sophisticated musical canvas and it's an integral part of the whole. For the past few days in my head sounds composition titled Audrey's dance and I see how delightfully elegant and sexy is dancing my favorite heroine in cafe "RR".
So I feel like involved in the life of this strange and magical town, where evil spirits live in the forest. I'm as Laura Palmer, doing something good in the day time but at night the dark forces overwhelm me. Maybe I should go to work in the One-Eyed Jack?)
Spring has finally done its job. My head is full of amorous charms ^^ But not everything is so simple! The fact is that the attraction for me is in the mind - I'm sapiosexual. The main thing I'm interested in is the inner world, worldview, imagination. So very often I fall in love with people whose appearance is far from the standards of beauty. Especially often the objects of my passion are scholars and experts in ancient languages ^^ At different times I was also crazy about Hoffmann, Baudelaire, Eliade and others and the fact that the majority of the finest men have already died drives me into depression. Another important thing: because for me the main thing is the soul, I absolutely indifferent in whose body it is enclosed. I mean that to me men and women are equally attractive. Someone calls it bisexuality, but for me it is included in the concept sapiosexual. What do you think it's crazy, sinful or normal thing?)
Too much light! I love the sun, but the first rays of spring, so bright and hot, make me hide in the shadows. The first thing I do when I get home - close all the curtains to stay in the dark and get rid of the pain in my eyes. One crazy thought has arisen in my head - can I become a vampire?:) This is my biggest dream since childhood, hee-hee :) It inspired me to watch old gold films with my favorite classical heroines: Morticia Addams, Lily Munster amd Vampira. Nevertheless, my appearance of the last days is more suitable for Elvira ;) What do you think, what kind of image is more like for me? V~V
Frankly, I'm a terrible perfectionist and used to be the best in everything. I know it's very selfish, but I would like to take the most important place in the thoughts of my beloved. But I must say that before we met, he lived with another girl he was madly in love. She left him, but for many years she remained for him a sort of deity. I know that I can never take her place in his heart. It's very painful. Especially when so much in his life and in the house is still something about her. It blackens my thoughts and I try my best to get rid of these negative emotions. In this way Indian philosophy that preaches rejection of any emotion at all helps me very much. Have you faced similar situations? How do you fight this?
Oh no, that's not a typo :) I named this post so because my close friend from America hung my picture on his wall, and it's immediately sparked association with the story of Wilde! For the first time I see my photos in this form and it is very pleasant to me.
Oh how I would like that picture to grow old instead of me ... I'm afraid of aging. What do you think of this? How do you feel about that process? I always wanted to be a vampire, for the reason that old age and death won't affect me. Just imagine - you're forever young, healthy, and you have hundreds of years ahead to explore all that you are interested! What could be better than this?!
Unusually warm February. I love this weather. But there is no way to enjoy the revival occurring in nature. Black stripe have started and it lasts for around two weeks. I am haunted by the failures and minor mishaps. Same with my friends and family. Now I'm afraid to take any significant steps or take vital decisions. Waiting for some sign that all bad is ended. From morning till night I'm doing research for my thesis, and hope that anything evil won't happen again.
Something must change! In this situation, I decided to change myself. Slightly. Farewell bangs! :) Sounds silly, but I need at least something new or I'll go crazy. Besides, I have long wanted to appeal to a more classical looking. So bye-bye colored strands! On the other hand it is connected with the fact that the place where I desire to work after my graduation very high demands to the appearence. But it's still a secret!
I would love to know how do you feel about the signs and portents? You follow them?
Today is magical day, my friends! I hope you are all absorbed in love and passion that illuminates your life. The same can be said about me. I was lucky to find someone whom I can call my second half. He always shares my interests, supports me in difficult times, keeps alive my craving for travel. We have come a long way to present unity and happiness. I am very uneasy person :) Very often insane jealousy gripping me. But I try to overcome my bad temper for a loved one. Some of you probably think that today's celebration is quite silly. But it is not so! This is just one more reason to say to the one near you how much you love him/her. So let's be happy regardless of the date on the calendar!
Title for this post is not accidental. Remember the beginning of your relationship with someone, when you're trying to remember every detail associated with the object of your feelings. That's it! When we started dating, there was wonderful film in cinemas - Tim Burton's "Dark Shadows". Tee-hee :) And of course you remember the soundtrack to the film. The moody blues - "Nights in white satin". Honestly we were looking at each other, not at the screen. And kissed when this wonderful melody sound. Ah...What does our life without love?
For monetary reasons and because of the lack of fantasy I bought for my lover a rather banal gift - stunning fragrance from Kenzo. But in return I got something completely unexpected! A day for the two of us in the spa complex! WOW! How does he manage to guess my secret desires?! And tonight we're going to drink a glass of wine in a French restaurant. I wish you all amazing evening and romantic weekend! =*
My name is Grace Hollow Doll. You can ask why? Well...It's seems to me that we are all dolls in this world. Someone will come and play with us, our bodies and hearts. I feel so empty inside that since I was young I've been trying to fill the void in my soul by thousands different things: art, photography, litterature and poetry, decadance, gothic subculture, esoterism, astrology, eastern culture and religions, dark music. All this has contributed to the formation of my personality. And now I am who I am. I adore travelling. Travelling is a real phylosophy. So I can describe myself in a few words: I am only a wanderer in this world who wants to leave her mark.
